Sunday, October 16, 2005
hmmz...seems tis week is another challenge for me to take...zzz...zzz...yup...him again...-.-" while i was trying hard to forget him...he seems to knew it...n pull my soul back...y.y.y.y..y??? on mondae...he ask mi out for a tok...it was...torturous...cruel is the fact...i cant believe wad he said is truth...really had a brkdwn...i felt so ...helpless...nuisance...n useless too...i cant help anything to it...u noe the pain of it?...i leave without letting him to explain it all...i dun wan another slash in my heart...it bleeds...really...
the whole night was a living hell for mi...i cant get into slp...was tossing here n there...thinking a solution to it...but it seems...i really cant help it...tis he had to settle it himself...all i noe is to pray tat everything is fine for him...
i went out everyday this week...from early in the morning to night...i couldn't think of staying at home...probably gone mad...life's short ya? y not go for the happy path...instead of torturing yrself...it would feel gd anyway isn't it?...
had an eye opener tis week...my dad bring mi to an old street at some corner of s'pore...those ppl were in old n torn clothings...hair's messy n some sort of beggers in the street...they were selling 2nd hand goods...n some stuff tat were thrown away by ppl...ya...tat's their life!...compare to mi...i was much much better than them...i had no worries for my 3 meals full...my comfort clothings were bundled...n had endless to spend...but wad make mi sour in heart is...despite of theirs beggers life...they seems content in life...there are still smile in their faces...tat was wad i'm ashamed of...my dad told mi this 'zhi zu zhang le' which means if u want everlasting happiness in life u had to be contented in things u do...becoz u are contented then u will find happiness...
had learnt a great lesson after every outing with my dad...sometimes we juz needs someone to tok to...then we can manage things out properly...
haas...found myself a job recommended by a fren...it's a factory job...zzz...seems to become robot when start to work...coz it's non-stop! until the 15mins brk then can had a rest...15mins...-.-" 5 mins for toilet brk...the rest of 10mins...can do wad? shoot bird oso nt enough la...zzz...after the long long hours of working...go home still needs to suffer again! cant slp...really cant...the pain...living hell man! zzz...dad & mum seems getting worried as i kept moaning in the middle of night -.-... cuts in the hands were everywhere...aww...pain! freak to it... intend to get another job since mum suggested to it ...learnt another lesson againz... hmmz...wellz... life's short... do wad im happy with... n contented is the main key now... nth could stop it!!! =P my way, my life! coz tat's mi~ *winks* hahaz...ok...end here~ take care all frens n miss u lotsa!....
[..[.be.contented.]..]
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Saturday, October 08, 2005
yippeeeee!...finally finally....this is wad im waiting for...n level's over!...wellz...tis whole week was crazy over tis n's....thou was stress by it but still have laughter within my frens n me,in a sense bah...lolx...juz cant stop crapping when i was too high...haaz...yup...indeed a memory for all of us to remembered the day we had had together...hmmz....was wondering how they'll look after 10yrs or 20yrs later during some of the gathering...hahax...some may even level up to become dad or mum liao...n oso the guessing of each other by their looks...how fun eh...but tat is in another 10 or 20 yrs later bahx...
hmmz...since after this torturing n level...shld give myself a treat to relax le! haha..how great! was going to overseas...hohox! hmmz...but seems i wanna do something more meaningful instead of going overseas n laze around...any suggestion? hahaz...
zzzz....something happened ytd...dun wanna mention it too...zzzz....told this matter to some of my frenz n each give a different explanation?...omg! had to do a conclusion myself le...hate that feeling...like 2 chose 1 like tat...but both is yr fav...argh...haiz...sometimes i even wondered did i take the wrong step? why? what? this or so de... maybe tat's the element of growing up bah...? *conclusion in process* pray n pray...hope i'll be fine...
elements? yup...everything has its element to it...so called things are make up of many things...treat it seriously as bits of it counted too...
wellz...i'll end my post here...oh ya...i'll be only update my blog once every week...probably sat or sun...so take care my frens n miss ya!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Sunday, October 02, 2005
here i come to blog again....was kinda buzy last week? hmmz...last week with my 4n2 le...coz all of us are taking our n level tml! zzz...really cant bear for the leaving but every story has different chapters to go on n mine is going to other chapter too...
wellz...last friday is the most meaningful lesson i had had in sch...full of physcology thinking n meaning...1st is mr yip told us abt the 'the best is yet to be'
chim eh? which means the BEST still had another BEST of it...so continue to become the BEST of BEST? lolx...okok enough of this 'best' thingy... another lovely teacher of us, mrs choo! she shared with us of her past time...a very touching n a meaningful one... with end is abt thinking right...a story is make up of chapters...chapters are make up of living on n so created chapters?... everyone goes into different stages of life n makes a story in life...
let tok abt the testimonial i give to this sch...in this sch for 4 years...i had go thru thick n thin, in life...i believe the same goes to the others too... it is a memory to everyone when it come to an end of secondary sch life...n carries on till old till death...changes occur too as everyone grown up from childish to mature...maybe some haven change bah...lolx? hmmz...got to take this time to thankz my teachers especially miss jasmine tan n miss hilda toh they make a great impact in my sch life... miss tan is my sec 1 form teacher oso my cca T-I-C i joined the cca juz becoz of her to help her set up the cca...she's always like a big sis to me n nv fail to be there for me if i need her...in the cca she will always join in the activities with us n tok together in a big group n share our life being...n i've rmbeb our sch the only n only 1 sport day...b4 her leaving of sch...her wish is for us to get champion! all of us was like stunned >.<" but we by faith work hard together in training for the running...cheering teams...blah blah...hey guys~ still rmb our 'Oreo Cheer'? lolx! tat's was fun...with all those training we do our best on that only sport day n fulfil miss tan wishes...We GOT IT! all of us were rejoices but at the same time teary too...she's leaving...really leaving...=.... y all this happen to good teachers y nt the bad ones? does this prove tat the outside world is cruel in a sense tat everyone shld be bad in order to sustain in the society? doesn't it sound putting on a mask?... ok stop the saddening story...gonna cry soon...
hmmz miss toh...small built but her care n concern was so huge...she's more to fren to us rather than a teacher...she's always happily chirping around but has strict side when it comes to serious matter...she had been our form teacher for 2yrs...sec 3 n 4....no wonder we were so safe under her guardian...really wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to this both wonderful teacher...
not forgetting to thankz my friends too...they play apart too...without them a circle is nt a circle, a square is nt a square anymore...really glad to have them...thou nt everytime our friendship went smoothly but i hope tat our emotional dun destroy the relationship as it is nt easy to build it up...all i hope is everyone to be happy n cherish the time tat we had together....
Sunday, October 02, 2005
